Author Archives: Steph Holloway

I’ve been pretty quiet on here over the last couple of months. I decided to take some time away from my blog to focus more on myself as I knew the time of year would potentially be quite difficult. From the beginning of the year I’d been worried about how Christmas 2019 would be, givenContinue reading “A Not So Fresh Start”

Growing up we’re always told to stay away from strangers. We’re told of what might happen to us and how dangerous strangers could be. We’re told to be on our guard and to never trust a person that we don’t know. But what happens when the people that we think we know become the peopleContinue reading “The Hard Truth”

On December 27th 2018, I went to the police station to give my video interview. My mum and dad came with me for support. We walked into the main reception and had to ask for the investigating officer. She came down to meet us and walked us up to the room where the interview wouldContinue reading “Continued”

It’s taken me a long while to write this post. I’ve started it and deleted it more times than I can count. I started to write this blog because I wanted to share what I’d been through over the last 10 months, which essentially all started with the night that I was sexually assaulted. SayingContinue reading “The Beginning”

This week I’ve decided not to share a post in the way I usually would. What I wanted to share today is half written, but after a pretty difficult and draining week or so, I couldn’t bring myself to finish writing it. I feel bad that the people following my blog weekly may be expectingContinue reading “Needing Time For Myself”

A few weeks ago, I wrote a post talking about the night that I wanted to end my life and it received a much larger response than I ever imagined it would. I had hundreds of views on that particular post and a ton of messages of encouragement and support. After going through something soContinue reading “My Experience With Suicidal Thoughts”

The night I wanted to end my life was quite honestly the lowest point I’ve ever gotten to. I feel for every single person who has ever been there, and every single person who has unfortunately lost their life because their mind won the battle. It’s a horrible, lonely and dark place to be. AndContinue reading “Moving Forward”

After getting back home, hiding myself away in bed, wrapping myself in my quilt and crying myself to sleep, I stayed there for the best part of the day. I didn’t want to think about what had just happened, never mind speak about it. When I did wake up I had so many thoughts andContinue reading “THAT Night”

It’s taken me a while to write this post. I’ve kept putting it off every time I’ve come to write it, and I’m now writing it just a few days before it will be posted. I’ve found this one the hardest to write for different reasons to the others. With the others, I’ve been apprehensiveContinue reading “Another Setback”

Opening up and talking was one of the most crucial parts of overcoming everything for me. However, I quickly learnt that talking to the wrong people can have the complete opposite effect. And by wrong people, in summary, I mean any person who makes you feel bad for choosing to do what you think isContinue reading “Guilt”